I'm an alien
HEAD
SHOULDERS
KNEES
TOES
And I tell myself to keep holding on.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Dean and friends came to Crescent to sell their concert tickets.Liana and I,being really nice people,bought him drinks and helped advertise,but those were futile attempts.2 hours,with no one buying the concert tickets.So here I am to advertise:D ACS (BR) Choir Concert 27 October 2007 7.30pm Tickets are going for $15 each See Dean,I'm such a nice kid okay(hahha Saturday's training,SO LOOKING FORWARD TO IT!)Those who happen to be interested,please leave your email/website at my tagboard for more details(like the venue) and I'll get back to you asap.It's in ACS(BR)'s campus,but not sure where exactly is the concert held at.Went to Gleneagles after school to visit Cikgu(:Head off to Botanic Gardens to have lunch,and I ended up eating alone cos Fad didn't feel like eating after buying the food.Walked back to the 132/111 bus stop with her,she bought ice-cream,I didn't though.Emo-ed in the train while listening to ipod which decided to die halfway(uhhh,okay whateverrrrr.Don't ask why.)Reached home,and here I am. [edit/] I.am.(dont swear Sya please).pissed.I found something that was for me,in my bag,somehow(I shouldn't have slept in the bloody train oh my),and at first,I thought that was very sweet of whoever that person was to write to me.But no.It turned out to be a long essay of bitchings about me.And thankfully I only read it when I returned home,so yeah,no one saw me cry at least.I hate being affected by what others say/think but I know I'm such a loser.I cry over things that people say/think about me.I remember it all the time,and it hurts me too.After reading all of that,I decided:That's true.I am such a bitch,I didn't know that much earlier.And I'm sorry(and though this doesn't make up for anything) for being one.I'll repeat what I said:I`m sorry that I was not enough.I`m sorry that I didn`t have enough.I`m sorry that I was too much.I`m sorry I fussed over you.I really didn`t mean to.It`s just the way I am.I`m sorry I didn`t care enough.Or did I care too much I guess.I`ll never know.I`m sorry I didnt have the world.I`m sorry I fell short of your expectations.I`m sorry I wasn`t good enough.I`m sorry I don`t know what I was thinking.I`m sorry that I shame you.I`m sorry I really didn`t mean to.I`m sorry I never saw you cry.Don't try to cheer me up because I've had enough of everyone trying to,but failed.Maybe Naz,you shouldn't have known me.That was the biggest mistake of your life.
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